http://viaprograms.wordpress.com/2009/10/30/w-t-chan-fellow-talks-about-her-internship-at-via/

俺的在VIA blog上写的文章。因为wordpress被封了…所以贴个图证明一下

It was 2009 April. Right before I was going to fill out the application form of 2009 Asia-US Service-Learning Program of VIA, I got the exciting offer of W.T.Chan Fellowships Program. Later in June, as 09 Chan Fellow, I met Ms. Wang Qiushi, a participant from 2008 AUSL program in the 2th Asia-Pacific Regional Conference on Service-Learning who talked about her exciting experience in the Bay Area. But it was until I received my internship placement did I realize the close connection between VIA, Chan Fellowships and my passion for service-learning.

I came to California with a simple goal: Learn more about service-learning and bring it back to China. Since former Fellows emphasized to us with good-intention that don't expect too much your work would contribute to your organization as a foreign student, this goal was the only thing I keep in mind. But the email from Ben Strong, the Stanford Program Director also my supervisor, with a draft work plan of my entire internship told me that this was a serious job and I was going to learn a lot. 

The first two weeks didn't seem serious at all. I followed the AUSL Program to visit a wild variety of public service organization in Bay Area, listen to leaders about what and why they do, join miscellaneous volunteer activities, discuss and reflect about everyday experience. The vigor and involvement of participants from Japan, Mainland China, Taiwan and Hong Kong deeply impressed me. I kept wondering, what kind of program can mingle Asian students with different backgrounds and interests together the same time kindle their passion for public service?

The answers revealed themselves as I became part of VIA and VIA. There are several things make AUSL one and only. Service-learning focused, energetic college students, intercultural communication environment, peer leadership from Stanford and Asia Coordinators, and it is in one of the most liberal and civic engaging regions--Bay Area. In fact, you can find these components across VIA programs in various forms.

It is great learning experience to participants and no less for me. Everyday, I'm learning, laughing, getting lost in Stanford or jumping into the huge bean bag in SF office. I can't think of one reason why I don't like my internship in VIA.

我今天心情好，特意去看看自己大三一年的成绩烂到什么程度。这一年的我成绩排名大概是自己专业60%或者更后。大一大二大概是5%。哇咔咔。

不看不知道，一看哇一哇。其实没有很差嘛，排名烂只不过是因为大家很好而已。临考试前两天才去读课本的结果就是这样的啦，我痛痛快快地接受。

其实也就只有一门课奇烂嘛，而且那还是有原因的…

看到这里，觉得无限同情那些学工学理学医的同志们。我3.5，4.3的绩点，也就排全班个中间甚至靠后。我怀疑全部“语言人类学”都是4.4…我只上过三堂课。学文的老师就是有人文关怀。“亲属和社会组织”没有怎么上过，翘课去了听砚菲老师的“religion and society”。“跨文化”我完全不记得讲过什么，大概都在发呆或者看书。那本书倒是好书。我挺喜欢朱妈妈的，她介绍的书都挺好看的。“影视”是大家挺喜欢的课，但我个人不接受邓老的讲课方式。

一年下来，我有听课+笔记+读书的估计是…

Lectures on Ethnographic studies（上）（民族志导论）、佛教人类学、宗教学与宗教人类学（读书部分完全听从砚菲老师）、拉丁文和花鸟鱼虫。公民课也挺认真做事情的。老麦rocks~

其实都是好课，个人兴趣问题。

狂想：其实我以后能不能把我选修的成绩算上？四年下来选修比必修要好看很多，尤其是公选，4.0+一堆…除了我只上过一节课的“日本政治与中日关系”。

穿着睡衣对着电脑，和在PaloAlto的Ben，在东京的Ryuta聊新项目的传单设计。

旁边是妈子的小紫砂壶，里面是先涩后甘的单丛。

出门帮文超美女和自己还书。套上Britt的套头衫和Berkeley High校裤，头发甩一甩，和Meg来个眼神道别，出门。

心情很好，因为头发很蓬松。3.8大元的洗发水比什么都好用。

耳边是王菲98年欢快的声音唱着“执迷不悔”。

头发随着我的步子弹着跳着，阳光下的风，雨后很温柔。

中午的校园里总是熙熙攘攘，我耳朵继续塞着王菲，微笑着收下各色传单。年轻人。

过马路的时候大卡车小轿车都会停下，招个手示意您先走。

没有人认识我，我也不认识任何人。

老子我今天心情很好，虽然要写完学年论文。

Before the article, let’s hear a word from the founder

Rubicon National from Rubicon National on Vimeo.

http://rubiconnsi.blogspot.com/2009/08/summer-interns-thoughts-on-working-for.html

TUESDAY, AUGUST 11, 2009

A Summer Intern’s Thoughts on Working for Rubicon National

Before I became an intern at Rubicon National Social Innovations, I had little idea of what social enterprise entailed. I received a summer fellowship from U Penn with funding provided by the Levy Social Impact Fund at the Wharton School. I was intrigued with the internship position because it focused on a feasibility study on the viability of a weatherization and energy efficiency retrofit social enterprise and I had similar previous coursework related to sustainable energy.

My knowledge of social enterprise was limited to the notion that social enterprise somehow uses business skills to try to solve injustices or economic inequities throughout the world. With the little experience I had from doing community service in my spare time, I honestly could not distinguish one non-profit from another in terms of their strategies and approaches to having social impact. After a phenomenal and memorable 2-month experience with RNSI, I am proud to say that I can now make that distinction (or at least I think I can).
One thing that I have questioned over the years while participating in numerous service activities is how effective those service organizations are. Although their direct services were beneficial to those they were helping, it never seemed like lasting change in people’s lives was being made. By no means are these organizations unnecessary or obsolete; it just seemed to me that their work was “patchwork,” -- only temporarily providing relief.

That’s partly why I have continually been impressed by the work that Rubicon National is doing. The approach to battling a vicious cycle of intergenerational poverty is deeply rooted in creating sustainable, long-lasting employment opportunities powerful enough to lift people up and out of their predicament. The social enterprise models that are developed are truly innovative, creating social enterprises relying on market forces (for financial stability) and operating on a national scale to maximize social impact. They clearly break away from the patchwork model of traditional charities and make a lasting social impact in the communities that need the most help.

What’s more is that their recognition that social change and environmental responsibility do not have to be mutually exclusive, a tenet to which I firmly adhere. During my time here at Rubicon National, we have been diligently developing an energy efficiency retrofit service as a social enterprise that would create green collar jobs and pathways out of poverty in cities around the United States. Because of the federal mandate for economic recovery and climate change mitigation, Rubicon National realizes that retrofitting homes with energy efficiency measures creates excellent opportunities for the hardest to employ, offering training services and career advancement possibilities in a growing industry.
By leveraging tremendous volunteer support, Rubicon National has made significant progress on the enterprise that would not otherwise have been achieved. It is incredible how much buy-in to the project Rubicon National has received from corporate, civic and professional groups, accelerating the development process exponentially. Not only have the volunteers shown their interest in energy efficiency retrofits, but also that they genuinely believe in the potential it has for making a lasting social impact.

As my internship comes to a close, I am proud to say that I contributed meaningfully to Rubicon National’s energy efficiency retrofit enterprise. As biased as this may seem, I believe that Rubicon National Social Innovations is one-of-a-kind, having unmatchable experience in the field of social enterprise and a proven track record of success. They may just be getting their footing as social enterprise modelers, but they truly are the “laboratory for scaling social enterprise” and deserve much recognition for their work.

POSTED BY RUBICON NATIONAL SOCIAL INNOVATIONSAT 11:35 AM

今天MK开车带我/Frances/Doris去了著名的美国国家公园Yosemite.

一日来回，当然无法深入探个究竟。不过总的来说，见不到黑熊的Yosemite没有川西延绵的山脉来得雄伟秀丽。比较符合美国风格的山景。不过作为国家公园，Yosemite有很好管理制度和游客设施。估计除非天降凶雷，不然都不会出人命。

中国的名山大川得以扬名，通常是因为文人骚客的应景抒情，流传千古，比如和Yosemite有兄弟关系的黄山。Yosemite之所以盛名远播，不得不归功于摄影史上十分重要的一位人物：Ansel Adams。这位仁兄长於三藩市（旧金山），1916年小小年纪第一进入Yosemite，惊为天人，一见倾情。亚当爸送给他第一部柯达相机。十几岁他就兼职做点摄影的活儿。直到这位未来摄影大师二十多岁时，他都认为自己以后会成为一个钢琴家。1927年他签了第一份摄影合约，从此开始了摄影师的生涯。他每年都要回Yosemite拍照，百拍不厌。他是一位摄影师，一位环境保护者，一位摄影教育家，一个热爱自然的人。

他的作品让人过目不忙。他利用“zone system”的曝光技术，赋予巨幅的黑白照片惊人的清晰度和景深。基本上，他是个光线玩家。

source：http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ansel_Adams

最爱：

               Jeffrey Pine, Sentinel Dome, Yosemite                                                        Moonrise, Hernández,New Mexico

拖下拖下变两个月了… This supposed to be two weeks ago…

疯狂两星期。It has been crazy.

工作=坐车。When work means commute.

VIA在斯坦福大学有一个办公室。这周是关于斯坦福项目未来走向的讨论，还有春假的新项目设计问题，所以一定要到斯坦福的办公室去。我的时间是这样：7：30左右出门，搭上7：49 Berkeley—> Fremont 的BART（轻轨），然后8：30在Union City下去等8：46的DB 巴士，9：20左右到Palo Alto Transit Center，找到那免费的穿梭斯坦福巴士，9：33左右下车，步行到办公室。整整三个小时。问题是，我每次下车都迷路，每次迷路的方向都不一样…

It is fun to work in different places. But I definitely like it better when you don’t have to take 3hour commute to get to the other work site. Thanks to Suzan that she found the way to get down to Stanford by BART+AC Transit, which it’s way cheaper and nicer than CalTrain although there is no time difference. We have been working on the spring program this week, no solid result come out yet ahhhh.

            
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工作当然和学习挂钩。新项目是有关social innovation, social venture, social entrepreneurship。我连对应的中文都不太明白。只能边干边学，现学现卖。这周听了一个有意思的讲座。宏观的视角横向比较不同技术革新策略如何影响硅谷、中国、印度、日本等地的经济发展。

I don’t have that much knowledge about social innovation, social venture, social entrepreneurship, which are the theme of the new program. A lot of to catch up. Ben and I went to a leture on Thursday, very interesting to hear how the professor compares the technology strategies in Sillicon Valley and Asia from a very macro perspective. http://ceas.stanford.edu/events/technology_strategies_in_silicon_valley_and_asia_contrasting_patterns_of_open_innovation/

如果是下班的交通高峰期，三个小时的车程一般都变成四个小时。当坐了四个小时不同的交通工具加上步行之后，很棒很精彩的音乐会也只能使我勉强支撑两个小时。不过,温顿马萨利斯和爵士林肯中心的名声真的不是盖的!!!

Even it’s Wyton Marsalis, I was still dozing off for the whole time when it took me four hours to get back from Stanford. But truely, I love alive Jazz performance.

http://www.calperfs.berkeley.edu/presents/season/2009/jazz/wm_jlco.php#audio

我的美国姐姐星期一飞往危地马拉开始她6个月的异国工作。我好不伤心哪！不过，我还有美国妈妈Mary Kay，未来女婿Mickey和他们的朋友，现在也是我的朋友，Suraj。上周看了Mickey的舞剧，实在是惊呆了。本就知道Mickey身手敏捷，不同于一般的残障人士，但看到他拄着拐杖或是坐在轮椅上仍能表达出如此丰满的肢体语言，我还是非常讶异。这个舞剧是以现代舞来表达关于美籍日裔的身份迷失的主题，很是吸引。虽然最后舞蹈演员的衣服被脱光了…

I’m still SAD that Britt left for Guatemala last Mon. I miss my American sister!!! It makes me better that I can always hang out a lot with MK, Mickey and suraj. Last Sat we went to Mickey’s dance. I was told that the dance was weird and MK laughed the whole show last time she saw the performance. But this time is a dance play about Japanese American identity and I like it very much. It’s amazing to see how capable Mickey is when he dances. The way he expressed the dance on wheelchair or with crutches truly impressed me.

                  http://www.odcdance.org/performance.php?param=18

昨晚去了一个即兴的剧场演出。三个大男人站在台上，观众可以随便说一个词，比如“便便”，然后三个人马上即兴演出一台

以此为关键词的短剧。音乐，灯光都是即兴的。三个人互相之间也不知道对方会爆出什么台词。非常搞笑。其中一位演员是Mickey和Britt的轮椅篮球队教练。

I went to an improve show with Mickey and Suraj last night. One of the three actors is Mickey&Britt’s wheelchair basketball coach. He has been doing improvising since 1988. It was really funny. I kept laughing all the time even though sometimes I didn’t really get the lines. Their facial expressions are sooooo funny!!

http://www.3forall.com/

晚上在Mickey爸妈家，也就是他长大的地方过了一夜。他父亲是个兽医。家里有三条狗三只猫一只羊两匹马。乡村大房子。第二天Mickey载我一同去了Revolution。Revolution is a traditional fundraiser. It happens in every last Saturday of September in Trentadue Winery, Sonoma County.风景那个优美啊，豪华轿车一辆接一辆，肯定是来品酒的。

Mickey全家准备参加25mile，我伟大的老板，supervisor Ben 要骑100miles。100 miles=160.9km. 这是人做的事情吗…

                            借张官网图片用用。http://www.borp.org/revolution/index.php

                                                                                             酒庄

         key全家 很有型的单车        

I made dozens of phonecalls to Anjali making sure that Ben was still alive. 他骑他那辆小破车骑了7个半小时…7.5hours bikeride in 102F, Ben made it. He is crazy.有这样的老板不知道是不是好事。That's what he looks like after the 7.5 hours and 160KM.

周日和Frances去了Folsom Street Fair. 差点没笑爆。因为我迟到了大半个小时，打电话给Frances, 电话那头传来女高音：“ahhhhh，好核突啊！！！好多中年男人无着衫啊！！！”似乎这个Fair货真价实。

                                                                  someone behind me said: He should go to Broadway.

Below are photos by Frances, I forgot to charge mine…以下都是Frances拍的。

其他就不放上来了，省得被封。也不解释了，各位看官随便往狠处想。而且这类疯狂活动三藩市每周都有，任君选择。

这个自从我到美利坚之后，意外事故不断。倒不是什么“死人冧楼”的事情，但就像蚂蚁上身，寝食时难安哪~

决定做个总结：

1、皮肤问题

过敏性体质的人不知道应该叫做娇贵还是诸事，特别容易出状况。湾区的气候比起广州要干燥不少，旧金山大风低温，伯克莱艳阳高照。我那经受过西藏高原阳光洗礼的面庞，很早就对这里的阳光和冷风举白旗。晒伤一个月后，依然痛。结果是花大价钱小力气到Kiehl's买了一套产品，适合最脆弱不堪磨练的肤质。经VIA 的财政总监Kirsten提醒，另购入BB油作洗浴后保湿用。但是今天发现自己身上某些部位在掉皮屑…像蛇…

2、手机

到这里的第五天，新买不到一个月的索爱被水泡了。因为白痴的我没有把同放在包里的水壶盖拧紧。折折腾腾动员了全世界吹干电池重设电话找后备AT&T电话了好多天，结果某一天，它活过来了。

3、左脚脚腕

对，我又扭到了。唯一一次和篮球没有关系的扭到，下楼梯扭的。但是以前“拗柴”会有妈子接送上下学。这次因为要旁观AUSL项目从中学习，每天走走走，依然肿。用完了大平一盒狗皮膏+半瓶黄道益活络油之后，又欠她两刀在屋仑（oakland）的唐埠买了广州产的麝香狗皮膏药。同一屋檐下的加拿大籍法国租客Rya特意买我一大盒某盐，泡完果然没那么疼。反正现在还没有好就是了。

4、隐形眼镜

当时一心想，我从澳门买的daily还是从美国进口的，干嘛不到美国买。结果，这个万恶的资本主义国家是要医生处方买隐形眼镜的。怎样可以拿到处方？做眼部检查！大价钱…结果现在还没有买到。这边戴眼镜很不方便，因为太晒了，要用装帅用的大墨镜保护眼睛。

5、感冒

来之前感冒得我要死要活的。现在似乎又要开始了。倒不像是H1N1，不过现在的确是流感季节。 喉痛肿痛，声音嘶哑，贪多咳嗽，鼻塞流涕，唉~多喝水多喝水，但是办公室那层楼洗手间最近在换地板砖，拉丁裔的工人每天开着音乐干得正欢。我只得频频搭电梯下楼上厕所，因为走火通道的门是单向开的，打开门出去了就只能一直冲到马路去…

我隐隐约约觉得，RP是一个均等值。好fellowship好homestay好intern好老板总得拿点啥平衡平衡。

    This is the first, or maybe second question that people ask me a lot when first met. I keep saying “ Can’t complain!”/ “Can’t be better!”/“Perfect!”

    I can’t really tell why it’s not perfect insofar. W.T. Chan Fellowships is the best service-learning/cultural exchange program I can ever imagine. Perhaps there is no better way to understand a culture, a society than to live with the people and work with the people and by the same time, you are required to commit yourself to change and grow for 6 months. Calcorp is the best kind of public service organization that ambitious, service-engaged college students wish to get help from. Our coordinator Suzan is brilliant, nice and thoughtful. Big sister Suzan. And best of all, Lingnan Foundation is the one behind all these. The trustees and alumni decided that they want to spend a large amount of money on these 12 young people, in order to help them to have deeper understanding of both US and China, to cultivate a sense of civil responsibility, to grow as an individual. As Dr. Feng, alumnus from Lingnan said, never forget the motto of Lingnan: Education for service.

   There are some more reasons that I used the word “perfect”. My host family is perfect: My host mom MK, loves to have exchange students around her house. The reason she prefers W.T. Chan rather than others is Chan fellows stay at least 5 months that let her know more about the person and feel like a family, not just a guest or a tenant. She was born in California and has lived all over United States then came back to Berkeley and settled down. I always so admire her understanding of her city, her involvement of the community. She knows every story behind the local business. She showed me the first Peet’s Coffee and Tea in North Berkeley and tell me which chocolate manufacturer started here then was purchased by Hershey’s. And after her grandparents, parents and she graduated from UC Berkeyly, she feels straight right that her son, Kyler, went to UCLA. To me, MK is like a living guild to Berkeley, Bay Area or even California. Besides, she’s a great mother. You can tell from Brittany and Kyler, excellent daughter and son.

   I’m always lucky. Brittany is around when I’m here, at least for a month. This is quite a privilege that even two other former Chan Fellows who stayed here , Vivica and Jasmine didn’t get. She had been busy all the time, even after graduated in June from Cal (ie. UC Berkeley) She is going to Guatemala to work in an NGO for the next 6 months so she is taking a break these days. I bet she is one of the best student leader in the public service. Look at how many awards she has! She has been working and coaching in BORP for 4 years now, where she met her cuties boyfriend Mickey. They are the cuties and nicest young couple I’ve ever met. I told Brit that if one day they broke up, I would be really really sad. We always have interesting and meaningful discussions, on health care in US, on the different lives for disabilities in China and US, on Tibet problem, on which type of boy/girl is hottest, etc.

   I left my family in Guangzhou, but I do have an American sister and mom in Berkeley.

   My internship is also perfect for me. Although my ‘boss’ Ben said it’s too soon to say. Volunteers In Asia is an non-profit organization established by a freshman Dean in Stanford University dated back in 1950s. They provide short-term and long-term programs to increase the mutural understanding of US and Asia, among university students. My job is to work with Ben Strong, who says he’s a ABHC ( America Born Half Chinese) the director of Asia-US Service-Learning Program. People in VIA are all nice and friendly, and Ben is super nice and easy-going. They are always ready to answer your questions, offer you help or listen to your thoughts. And AUSL is a very cool service-learning program, very expensevice though ( compared to W.T.Chan Fellowships). The first two weeks, my job is to follow the program, i.e. hanging out with a group of college students from Japan/ Mainland China/ Taiwan and visiting many public service organizations and doing volunteer work. It doesn’t sounds completely like a job, right? I’m just lucky that I got to experience two servic-learning programs and all the good things I saw during AUSL can be brought back to China, to start our own service-learning program. This is exactly the point why I want to come here. 

       However, there are things that far from perfect.

   I haven’t learned how to do fund raising. When a service-learning program costs $4,000, no matter how good it is, it basically keeps lots of potential best fit participants out of door. There are a lot more ground stuff.

   I am wondering what are there in store for me in the next few months. There should be exhilaration, satisfaction, depression, frustration, confusion all sorts of things. I need to make sure I’m well-equipped, with faith, confidence, modesty, and supports from fellowships.

   I doubt myself.

在深圳闲着无聊，思考下我的人生现状。Cogito,ergo sum.

由是我发现我处在一个吊诡的社会网络中。

从大学第二个寒假，我开始做各种各样田野调研。我看到的，我接触到的，和我一起生活的，是当代中国真实的角落。分不清汉藏户口却写着纳西族幸福生活的人们，相当于贫民窟全家靠拣纸皮为生的移民村村民，被无数热血青年景仰和被同行利用的NGO领袖，还有现在面临着政府的压制的劳工维权组织。其实每一次的调查能让我弄清楚了这一块领域的过去与现在。我可以像说书一样告诉你，当时5·12地震灾后紧急救援民间组织是如何联合、合作、运行、猜忌、分离。因为我和亲历者天天一块吃饭、上班、睡觉。他喜欢说“他妈的”还是“他娘的”，啥时候拉屎，多久洗一次头我都知道。好歹我是个挂着“人类学”头衔的调查者，自然我也会了解周围人对他们的看法，政府对他们的态度。在这样一种在局内与局外不停游离的状态中，我时不时获得了全知全能的视角，台前幕后一把抓。

对于一般的人，大多数的大学生，这当然不是如同“开心农场”和腾讯QQ一样熟悉的事情。有时候我挺激动地想，我看到的才是真实的中国。但其实我所熟悉的都是微观的中国，弱势群体的中国，边缘阶层的中国。当然，这都是中国。不在这些圈子里，却关心这个圈子的发展，还对这个圈子有了解的圈子就更小更小了。比如说我现在做的这个劳工组织，我能对话的人，恐怕不超过十个。我的老师，老师的朋友（还是老师），一两个曾经一起搞劳工组织活动的同学，仅此而已。

圈子小还不是重点，重点是我的小圈子给我造成了幻觉，美好理想的乌托邦幻觉。我遇到的老师是全身心投入建设中国公民社会的社会活动家，将学问当做游戏做的人，还有具有高超洞见和非凡佛学修养却平易地如同邻家姐姐的人。我申请的项目资助方投个十几万到一个年轻人身上只为了让他成长，没有任何评价的指标。我身边聚到一起的同学做事情考虑钱的时候很少，一边愤愤不平说同组没有人支持还一边将一个农民工参与式摄影展览做得很出色。我碰到的做NGO的人有很有钱但是把钱都搭进来警察来查也挺起胸膛有勇有谋黑白通吃，也有很穷把老婆打工的钱都搭进去一顿饭几粒肉三天两头被国安请喝茶的。我碰到的人都很美好，很善良，有模糊或清晰的理想，有对人性中美好的一点的执着，都有够傻的。

我生活在这样的一个圈子里，也傻了，也单纯了，也相信世界其实是美好的，顶多是被灰垢遮盖了。我更相信人性本善了。

吊诡的是自以为常常亲历真实社会的我，却越来越不现实。看着一个个同龄人在奋力迈向职场或者自由之邦，我搭不上话。我不了解这个绝大多数同龄人熟悉的现实社会，不懂行情。

我找不到我的位置了。

在琶洲地铁站，见到几对在高校咨询会上回来的父母。或疑惑，或焦虑，总是没有好面色。身在教育界的母亲大人进入每年一度的抢手期，红过炸子鸡。找她咨询填报志愿，录取流程，各级成绩情况的朋友一个接一个，或者说一堆接一堆。提携我吃了几顿好饭。高考中考果然是社会总动员，民心之集中所向。这场据称是没有硝烟的战争，总是有赢家有输家。胜者上头条，败者找我妈。

在一个个饭局上我看见的是一颗颗可怜的天下父母心，庞大炽热。他们那么用力，将自己的期望硬硬地投射于那唯一的孩子身上。罩得一片白灿灿，甚至见不到孩子的身影了。参加考试的那个人仿佛是剧场中的演员，但是按不按脚本出演是说不准的。

读费老的《生育制度》，似乎能够找到这情况的社会学解释：

“把理想自我转渡到孩子身上去，固然有放卸责任的危险，但是在相当的范围内，也正是抚育作用所需要的。我们要知道，一个人所具的理想，并不是他个人的创造，而是社会对他的期望。我们在别人的贬褒中筑成我们呢的理想。因之，理想中的自我实在是社会标准的反映，现实和理想的差别。也正是个人和社会的歧异。现在，为父母的以理想自我寄托到他们孩子的身上，也就等于用社会标准来责成于子女。我曾说过父母之于儿女，正代表着社会来控制个人，这是从客观方面说的。这里，我说父母把自己的理想交卸给子女，是从主观方面说的。这两种说法其实是一回事的两方面。”

-------费孝通，《生育制度》，第九章，“世代间的隔膜”

了解了原理，父母与子女之间，能少吵几句吗？

如果有人问我最想拥有的才能是什么，我会说：中文写作。

如果有人问我第二想拥有的才能是什么，我会说：绘画。

两者都关于表达。表达一个想法，一个推论，一种情绪，其实不是那么容易。误会似乎是人与人交往的诅咒。我说出来的话，决定于我当下的感受，受制于我身处的情境，对话的对象，被养育的环境，说话的动机，逝去的记忆，甚至是我所使用的语言。若一种感受在该语言中没有被分类及定义，我还能够辨识它吗？没有相对应的词汇，即便是可辨识的，我又如何将之表述出来？

学习第二语言有变身的奇效。说国语的我稍稍偏离说粤语的我，说英语的我明显异于说中文的我。这些都是我。使用不同语言交流，多少像易容的人，在一种自以为他以为诚恳坦率的情况下，选择合适的人皮面具。这样交流才能畅通无阻。

那天大佬源思辨地与我分析，越来越多中国人说一口流利的英文（外文），越来越多外国人学习中文。在使用非母语的过程中，语言及其承载的文化必然会在个人层面上相互影响，然后融合。说话者的思维同时也受到影响。终有一日，不同母语的说话人的思维会因为语言的混同而日渐趋同。同质化的大潮似乎不可阻挡。文化多元实质身处同质化的熔炉。所以大学者说，哲学已死。

听起来既危言耸听又杞人忧天，但又有那么点道理。我的语言人类学就写这个吧~

PS：使用两种以上语言的人罹患帕金斯症的可能性大大降低。中国的新一代老了头脑应该都很清醒。

知人不能善任会浪费人才，降低效率。

不知人而任则会自寻烦恼，简单问题复杂化。

以己推彼实是自负无明的做法。

由是，小事变成麻烦事。

备考GRE没啥好说的。偷懒之际遥想一下6月6日之后要完成的功课。

排名不分先后

1、读完Charisma and Compassion，写完刘老的读书笔记

2、梅兰竹菊各一幅

3、整理法文笔记。之前学得实在太烂。

4、编好《阿含经》读本二

5、找个时间找老朱讨论下美国实习的任务6

6.开始整理所有课程的笔记和ppt，考虑到完全没有听课又要考试的话…

都是读书的事情，我真是好孩子！

姓名：羊咩咩

真名：谢虫羊

与本人关系：损友

特长：Heir同搞下小文艺 本人名扬马路巴士地铁那个“无心向学”袋便是出自该人之手。

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来自《玫瑰之名》（可参见之前日志）

威廉推知出修道院连续发生的修道士命案都与修道院藏书楼里的“非洲之端”有关系。新上任的助理图书员本诺拿走了死于非命的药草师塞伟里努斯找到的一本古希腊文书。威廉在追查时候和见习修士有一番对话：

本诺是一种强烈欲念的牺牲品，他与贝伦加和食品监管不同。他和许多学者相仿，对知识有极大的欲望。是为了知识而只是。他曾被排斥在知识的一部分之外，于是他就想获取它。现在他把它弄到手了。马拉吉很了解他手下的人：他用了最完满的手段找回了书，又封住了本诺的嘴。你会问，如果有人不准大家一起来使用这知识的宝库，那他控制这个宝库其意义又何在？但正是为这一原因我要提到欲念。罗杰·培根对知识的渴求不是一种欲望：他要用他的学识为圣主的臣民造福，所以他并没有单纯为知识而知识。本诺的求知欲念仅仅是无法满足的好奇心和理念的虚傲。这只不过是一个修士用于转移或减轻淫念和狂热的一种手段。换个人，这种狂热就能把他造就成为信仰而战的勇士，或是散步邪教的干将。世上不光有肉欲……

有情皆苦哪~

近日功课甚繁重，学习MAX同学在图书馆苦中作乐，我也多多观察馆中人。（CF. <在图书馆复习系列 之 酱油叔叔>)

作为一个女生，我常常被SYSU校园内女士们的打扮所惊吓。原因多样，非一言能概之。

刚才在图书馆见到一位窈窕淑女，长发披肩，面容清秀，戴着眼睛仿似十分知性。但首项以下，真的…

她着一件淡粉红，就是很hellokitty pink那种pink，雪纺质地的onepiece短裙。吊带，v字领，腰线下乃层层叠的短裙（裙裤）。然后腿上是着黑袜，是经常被我怀疑是纺织密度不足造成的劣质透肉黑色长袜。刚过膝的长度，露出一截大腿，线条不错。脚上是有相当高度的黑色船踭绑带至脚腕的凉鞋。

问题是：面容发型不衬上身，上身不衬下身。下身像深夜去pub钓凯子，上身像半熟少女，就只有颈部以上有点像去图书馆…（可能近看还会发现她有妆。）

最大问题是，为什么会有人如此打扮上图书馆K书？她边K边约会？

我知道说人坏话比较缺德。神啊，你原谅我这个读不懂马克思韦伯而困窘的人吧！

I, may be we, have trapped in mist of what Americans call “critical thinking” ever since you turn on first page of GRE writing books and browse the website of US universities’s admission office.

Here is guidance from the book of  The Art of Being Human.

Critical thinking is an activity of the mind that carefully defines, describes, and analyzes something: an election, an executive decision, a question that has puzzled or intrigued philosophers for centuries, a new electronic invention, a movie, a novel, wh a song is Number 1 on the Top 40, or a determination to move into your own apartment. Whatever the issue, whatever the focus of thought, the steps to take are the same:

* Define the issue, problem,question, or work.

* Avoid instinctive, emotional responses, at least in the beginnig.

* Gather together all pertinent factors.

* Try to see the whole picture in its proper context.

* Forget how it relates only to you.

* Offer an informaed opinion.

作者: Richard Janaro, Thelma Altshuler

ISBN: 9787301074732
定价: 64.0
出版社: 北京大学出版社
丛书: 人文科学系列·北京大学培文书系
装帧: 平装
出版年: 2004-10-1

From 豆瓣

最近在看《玫瑰的名字》（Il Nome Della Rosa），或称《玫瑰之名》。因缘来自于读了几本讲书的书都提到这部以14世纪修道院内藏书楼为场景的小说。今天读到一段话，深有同感：

我醒来时，晚餐的钟声已经敲响。我感到困乏无神。白天睡觉如开肉欲之禁，得之愈多，愈觉不够，可仍感到不舒服。那感觉似是满足又不是满足。

作者: 翁贝尔托·埃科(Umberto Eco)
译者: 闵炳君

ISBN: 9787800300578
页数: 480
定价: 3.55元
出版社: 宝文堂书店
出版年: 1988年8月

From 豆瓣

Thomas More：Utopia 1516

Seven Regulative principles of kingship

“Yea, the king had better amend his own indolence or arrogance, for these two vices generally cause his people either to despise him or to hate him. Let him live harmlessly on what is his own. Let him adjust his expenses to his revenues. Let him check mischief and crime, and, bytraining his subjects rightly, let him prevent rather than allow the spread of activities which he weill have to punish afterwards. Let hime not be hasty in enforcing laws fallen into disuse, especially those which, long given up, have never been missed. Let him never take in compensation for violation anything that a private person would be forbidden in court to appropriate for the reason that such would be an act of crookd craftiness…….

“是的，一个国王应该力戒惰与傲，这两个弊病一般使他无从得到人民的爱戴。他必项依靠自己为生而无损于人。他必须量人为出。他应制止危害及罪行，正当地引导人民，与其各处有犯法行为而事后加以惩处，不如事前防止。时效丧失的法律，特别是长期不用而视同可无约法律，他不应轻率地付诸实施。他不能借口处分违法乱纪而没收法庭不容私人占取的财物，因为这是一种讹诈。……